money.cars. clothes.hoes. i suppose.

Drake said it best...."I just wanna be successful". So this summer will be filled with studying. Am I upset??... slightly but then i come to the realization that momentary sacrifice is far less significant then obtaining my dreams. Still i dont wanna study. This summer is the most important summer of my life. How I perform on the MCAT will determine the next four years of my life.....SCARY. i know. i am not so much stressed about the test. its more of a pressure emotion. pressure to obtain what I long for.... to not let myself down..... to StRiVe like I have never strived before (and we all kno I be striving lol). I trust God. I trust myself. I guess i should release it all. But, whatever your plan GOD.....I just wanna be successful

the MIND-<3 theory

its funny. my mind and heart are rarely in sync. one usually betrays me. judas to my ambitions.intuitions.my desires. constantly battling between what i want and what i truly need. whats fun now versus what will hurt later. the mind is rational. the heart is daring. the mind, well my mind to be exact, never is on the same page with my heart. over analyzing my every move. restricting my heart. my mind is my sentinel. guardian of my emotions, my most sacred parts. my heart just longs to feel, something real. feel deeply. passionately. fall freely. its the mind and heart battle. only when they are in sync is true love at hand or the best options/opportunities before you. dont settle for an mind/heart in-balance. connect.

Mr. NICE GUY

i have never and i mean never dated the nice guy. the nice guy has always been my friend. never my lover. always the one i talk to when i am down. the one i can depend on. "Nice guys finish last". I understand whole-heartedly. but why is that. why do girls not give the sweet, caring, sometimes lame guy a chance. lol. well, i guess we find the flirty, cocky, player, arrogant guy more enticing. i see it too often. girls want the life of the party guy who breaks their heart not the guy who helps to mind the pieces. watching my friends and looking at my past i have seen the outcome of these guys>> EpIc FaIlUrE way too often. there is the jock who cant keep his jock on. the greek who (runs) trains not only when he is strolling. the drug dealer who wont let us in his life completely, for obvious reasons. the poet. the model. the skater-boi.the rapper....the list goes on and on. its really quite sad. well, im getting older and i have realized that the nice guy isn't so bad after all. im trying this new outlook called open mindedness :)

the SET-UP

Ever wonder why we go through such difficult times in our lives. I mean I know life is not all roses but I mean come on oBsTaCleS are just not fun at all. Well, today i got it. it all made sense to me. why we go through trials and tribulations. Its a SET-UP, in the words of my assistant pastor. When we go through difficult times God is only preparing us, molding us, shaping us for our destinies. If we cant handle the little problems how can we manage multi-million dollar companies, perform open heart surgery in third world countries, or just survive this cut throat world. So next time you face a trial. Think it is a SET-UP. God is only preparing you for a promotion, a transition in your life. Test and storms come only to make us stronger people. ready and prepared for anything. :)